The thing you need to know about me is that there are certain people in my life who I love so much you can’t even imagine. Of course, there’s my best friends, then there’s a couple of people I study with – they all mean the world to me. However, I am closer to some of them then to others. This is only natural, I meet some of them on a daily basis but there are two people in my live who have this special place in my heart. I don’t know why or how they got there, but I love them more than anything else.
Today is about one of these two. You know, my ultimate BFF is a friend of mine now for more than 7 Years. She’s been there when I was happy and she never gave up on me when I hit rock bottom. The other person, let’s just call him persona non grata, I know now for about half a year. It seems odd that someone who I met although I didn’t want to (don’t be offended, it turned out to be the best decision I’ve made) now turns out to be one of the people I can’t imagine to ever live without. Now, the thing is: He just won’t talk to me anymore. Not that we had an argument, oh no! He just won’t because he has some real issues that he has to deal with on his own. You know, he is one of a kind. I’ve never met anyone like him. I don’t even know how to describe him, he is just that sort of person that I needed. However there hasn’t been a proper conversation for quite a couple of weeks. You all might or might not know how I feel right now. It’s like someone showed me what I miss in my life and then took it away. I know, he has some serious problems and he doesn’t want me to be around. I just don’t get why! You know, I’m quite like him, I don’t like to talk about my problems (and I ain’t talking about it right now, this, my dear friends, is the art of WRITING) but I tell him more or less everything. I don’t know why he just doesn’t trust me enough or what else it could be. But for the moment, I guess I just have to go on without him until he’s figured out how to cope with all the crap he’s dealing with right now (which, by the way, is also my fault somehow but that’s a different story).
Regards,
Christoph
